it took me some time until i finally realized that I MADE THE WRONG DECISION..
WRONG DECISION of giving up the only thing i wanted since the time i said that i wanted to be that kind of person when i grow up..
its heartbreaking that i easily gave up and did not fight for what i really wanted..
up to this point of writing this, my heart still aches..
i think it was a battle of heart and mind..
if i remember correctly, during the time that i made a decision, i was still confused what would my final decision would be..
but i chose to follow what my mind told me which was to give up and go with was i was thinking about to do and at the same time, ignored what my heart really said..
because of that, im now stuck in the path that i chose and its goodbye to what i really like..
of course i like what im stuck with right now but if i would be asked to rank the two, the present path i chose would only be number two and the thing that i gave up would be NUMBER ONE in my list..
but i guess there no turning back right now and all i could do would accept the fact that i was wrong with my decision, and live with what i chose.
i hope i could get over this thing as soon as possible so i would not have a hard time anymore..
